Mental breakdown? Honestly, I don't know. 2/2

Thursday, March 6th, 2014. 08:13 am.

Hi.

Speculations:

1• she's actually meeting up with someone. A stranger. It seems that the anon knew her and have already had a talk with her before asking her out. I said anon because there's no name tag thingy.

2• she's meeting up with her friend and made an appointment via askfm. This is also a viable speculation because from the way she responded, it seems like they already knew each other. She responded with "sure :)". And with a fucking smiley.

3• she's not actually going to meet up with someone but she asked her own account and answered it herself to bait me into meeting her. Maybe she thought I would follow her. Sounds too farfetched? I know, sounds outrageous.

Now, the reason behind those theories and some other stuff too that I can't properly say in English:

1• if someone asked me out like that, i would refuse. Because I don't know them, and, why the sudden interest in meeting me? In a place well known, and near a restaurant that serves my favorite food? Yes, sushi is her favorite food. She said so in her blog. No questions whatsoever, just "sure :)". Unless I know the guy or have already talked to them prior to these events, I wouldn't go. And its either the guy knew her, or they've been stalking her like I did. One person that I could come up with is the mystery writer person. He, or she, is the one writing both of the recent lemon/rape sex/yaoi/couple fan fiction in her blog. The guy emailed her and maybe they had a conversation via emails. Regarding the fanfic and other stuff too. They talked in English in her askfm but he/she might be Indonesian, just not in public. Another theory that branches from this one is there is no mystery writer. Audrey could have wrote them herself but she might be afraid of being called names and stuff so she made a target to move the attention away from her and into this mystery writer.

2• number 2 is actually self explanatory. But why there? So everyone can look at it? Mind you, she published that on twitter. If it is an appointment with her friend, or friends, she could talk about it somewhere else, right? Chatting apps, for an example. This is the most realistic one to me, but is also the one that makes the least sense to me. If her friend doesn't have an ask account, the no name tag thingy could be an excuse. There's no reason to not use a smiley or other emojis. And there's no reason to talk about it on askfm. You could just do it on twitter, right?

3• this sounded outrageous, i know. I thought so too. But it is a possibility. Or maybe its just me wishing it to happen. If its purpose was to bait me, would she even know I would come? I wanted to come, to be honest. If I have the power to do so. Dudes and dudettes, I'm not even sure if she remembers my face. And that's basically it. Its not going happen. If she remembers me, I'm sure its my twitter avatar. An image I always use. Its a fanart of Vanitas, a character from kingdom hearts. It means literally empty, or emptiness. My favorite villain. Funny, huh? He now perfectly describes my heart. Its empty. A big swollen empty space. Pic below.

But, you know, whatever. It is something beyond my control. So, fuck it.

-Aex, signing out.