Mental breakdown? Honestly, I don't know. 1/2

March 5th, wednesday, 2014. 23:00 / 11 pm.

Hi.

Audrey is gonna meet up with someone this Saturday. I don't know who its gonna be. I have no idea of who its gonna be, and its fucking up my mind. I have these pictures, screenshots. I saw that and it fucks my mind. I literally panicked.

I just raised my voice towards my mom. I'm a blazing hot mess at the moment. Not physically but mentally.

I'm gonna translate what's in the picture as I pictured it in my head. It says:

"wanna hang out? lets meet up next saturday in summarecon food court in front of the sushi place - sure"

Then she tweeted "caught" and went offline.

I don't know how to put it here but i think i panicked.

I didn't immediately asked her because I think its gonna be something that I'm not ready to face yet. I'm scared.

Before this happened, audrey has been offline for 23 hours straight. When she finally got on the line, she stated that she doesn't like having a heart to heart (its an indonesian slang and because of that i couldn't find a direct equivalent to the word) and thinks that its useless.

Then, she does some usual stuff but suddenly that answered question appeared on my timeline and I immediately went to her ask account to confirm it. It was a mind fuck.

I don't know if i should post this in my blog but i need to let this out of my chest. This is a venting place for me after all.

Holy shit man. Its killing me. I swear to god.

I'm gonna make another post about the result of my analysis of these chain of events. Speculations. I'll make it tomorrow after I calmed down. Pics below. And I'm posting this right away. I don't fucking care. Call me a stalker, over possessive, freak, whatever.