I said in OD 15 that I don't even remember how Audrey and I even met, but I remember other bits of information.
I don't know how it all began, just like a dream. But dreams are just like messages, stories of how our day went and are told to us in our sleep.
No story is not worth telling, and I have something like a story here. Let's see...
If I'm not mistaken, I knew her from before I got kicked out from my school, but I didn't know her that well. I was just following her on Twitter for entertainment. I looked around my bro's Twitter and found her profile. I took a glimpse, and I found her roleplaying.
I didn't know what Twitter roleplay was back then. At first I thought she was a foreigner because of her English skills, but then she talked to my bro about school assignment in Indonesian.
Time went on. I got kicked out, I felt lonely. Technology was my only friend. Everybody seemed to have slipped away from my life, escaping. My parents are terrified, even if I raised my voice by tiny bit, mom would say, "Have you taken your medicine?" They're scared. My bro seemed so distant, hard to approach.
I began talking to his friends. Before I knew it, I had latched into my bro's social life on Twitter. Like a parasite. And then I talked to Audrey. She was interested in Pokémon, like my bro used to. Before I knew her, I was interested in Pokémon because of my bro. And my curiosity was further pushed after I met her. I began to develop a liking to to Pokémon, and to her. As a friend. Back then she thought I was only an ordinary stranger and a friend of my bro.
After many months, we began talking about Minecraft. The three of us, me, my bro, and her was having a discussion. When I said I'm watching my bro playing Minecraft, she thought I was playing together in his house, then I said I'm his brother. It was a big revelation for her.
Somehow, we became closer as internet friends. Because of her, I met all kinds of people on Twitter.
Her friends:
♦The 'R' siblings: Ray (Ray/Drake/Paul. Male.), Ryan (Gen/Samuel. Male. Ray's older brother.) and Riane (Riane/Rosa. Female. Ray's younger sister.). Singaporean roleplayers.
♦Michael (Aero/Ezio/Zuru. Male.). Also a Singaporean roleplayer.
Those 4 persons have been missing for a very long time by the time you're reading this.
♦Axel. Pokémon enthusiast. Ariafams member.
I could say that he's a pervert because of his brutal honesty about his liking to hentai. But who am I to say that he is a perverted person if I am just the same as he is? Though I am slight less perverted. Maybe.
He is the one who would later introduced me to the other Ariafams members, which are:
♦Jane. K-pop fangirl. Ariafams member.
♦Angel. Pokémon enthusiast. K-pop fangirl. Ariafams member.
♦Abby. Pokémon and Kingdom Hearts enthusiast. His Ariafams membership is now questionable because he moved away to Australia.
Just so you know, Ariafams was founded by the last 4 people mentioned above. Its name was taken from my name, Ariabagas. Everyone used Aria- as their name's prefix. Its members:
•Me, Ariabagas Pr*********, Ariabagas. I prefer AriAex, but I never said anything about it.
•Audrey Vi******, AriAudrey.
•Axel Ku****, AriAxel.
•Jane Alice Ke*****, AriAlice. Before changed into AriAlice, her name was AriaJane.
•Angel Ap******, AriAngel.
•Ak***** "Abby" Se******, AriaBobi. AriAbby would be nice but he wanted it to be AriaBobi. And its funny, so whatever.
I became friends with her classmates too, but only for a while. They don't interest me. And I discovered the PokèTwitter RP universe.
A lot of stuff, basically.
After a while, I began roleplaying. Just for fun and because of my curiosity. But it turned to shit real fast. So I made an early retirement from the world of roleplaying.
At some point, Axel talked to me and said that he loved Audrey and asked whether if I too, loved her or not. I said I do. We became love rivals after that (Does that even make any sense? No? I thought so.). Hell, we even raced who would say happy birthday to her first at midnight on her B-Day. Axel eventually left his feelings of Audrey and moved on to Jane. Reasons unknown.
At this point, I have to apologize. I can't remember anything from August 2013 until January 2014 except a bit of Idul Fitri holiday on some time around August and Audrey's birthday on November. But I think its all written on my old posts.
Before my interest in Pokémon disappeared 2 months ago, I was in the Pokémon fandom. I study about them and stuff like that. You know, like a dedicated student. Or a fanboy trying to enter the competitive scene of Pokémon Battles. In the Idul Fitri holiday (I don't know the international name of the holiday, that's how we Indonesians say it here.) Audrey and I discussed about Pokémon. But I really wouldn't call it a serious discussion because we're really just talking about Pokémon XY and Mega-Evolutions at the time. That's all I remembered.
Now, by the time I'm writing this, Audrey has been "missing" for some time. I wrote about this on my previous post but its kinda short, like about her being busy because of school. The thing that I didn't mention there is that I'm concerned. I'm scared and confused. I talked about this to Jane and she said I should just stay positive. I'm trying to stay positive, but the worst case scenario kept on ringing in my head.
What if she's not coming back?
If she's planning on disappearing then I would try and find her. But, I don't want to upset her. That's why I didn't try and contact her. If the worst happens, I'll just have to let it go and move on. Its the logical thing to do. But I'm not sure I can do it.
I don't wanna talk about it, really. Just stay positive. Relax and put all this worry and fear to the back of my head.
I've been thinking though. My bro's school is going to have graduation exam in May, maybe Audrey got very busy. Its March now, they're probably having training exams from school. Their schedule is gonna be less extreme next month but I'm sure they're still pushed to study a lot. She might be freer next month, but still rarely goes online. And then its study time all over again. Well, what can I do about it, right?
I want to know how this particular love story (or rather, this romantic tragedy.) will end, but I'm also afraid of the answer. Regardless, time will tell. There's no need to rush it.
Let's just look forward.
-Aex
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