OD 2: Happy as fuck.

Monday, December. 02/12/2013. 13:05 / 01:05 pm.

Yeah. As the title suggests, today I'm happy as fuck. At least, by the time I'm writing this entry.

I GOT MY FUCKIN' INTERNET BACK BITCH YEAAAAA

*ahem*

But! At first I felt like shit. I woke up at 8 feeling like shit, thinking "its Monday again" and just looked up at the clock. "Its just 8 o'clock, I thought its already 11 o'clock."

Woo! Fuck yeah! And then I proceed to begin today's plans which are:

•Test some new PS2 games: The Godfather, Destroy All Humans, Spartan: Total Warrior, and Bloody Roar 4.
•Watch the entire Shingeki no Kyojin anime.
•Watch Youtube.
•Watch Squid Girl on Animax.

Pretty stupid, huh? I don't give a shit about what you think.

14:34 / 02:34 pm. I just finished watching YouTube. I watched about 20 vids and forgot to watch Shingeki no Kyojin. But, fuck SnK, I have YouTube. I can watch SnK later (if, of course, I remember).

So I boot up my good ol' PS2 and tested them all. Spartan goes first, seems fine, next. Destroy All Humans, looking good, next. The Godfather. GOD this game gives me a kick in the head. Fucking nostalgia, man. I used to play this game when I was like 12 IIRC, with my childhood friend Dillon in his house. 4 years ago, I would go to his house just so I can play this together with him. Now, not so much. And then comes Bloody Roar's turn. After putting the CD in the disk tray, I felt like I was dropped kicked. This game gives me good memories back then. Its nostalgia time!

I played arcade mode with my favorite character Bakuryu The Mole. Its so fun! Its like Tekken, with a furry twist.

Stage one, okay, alright, I got the basic stuff down. Stage two, wow this game is so fast-paced. Stage three, shit! I don't remember this game being so goddamn difficult. I kept on playing until I got to stage six and got stuck there. I kept on pushing and pushing but I still died. Lol I suck at this game. After failing at epic proportions (not really) for god knows how many times, I gave up and finished playing. I had a good time.

Now, at this point I take my laptop and proceed to watch some vids. At first I thought "what should I watch first? Shingeki no Kyojin or YouTube?" I decided to go watch YouTube first because I missed so many videos. I've been on a YouTube hiatus for about 3 weeks.

Scroll... scroll... scroll...

SHIT I MISSED SO MANY NEW VIDEOS

And that's how I end up watching 20 vids in a row and forgot about SnK.

16:09 / 04:09 pm. Finished watching Squid Girl episode 2. Cute! And funny~ its been a while since I had a good laugh. I'm not and anime addict or an otaku, I just like watching anime.

20:38 / 08:38 pm. Just finished watching Squid Girl, took a bath, played Bloody Roar 4, Spartan: Total War, and Destroy All Humans with my bro, watched Thor (the first movie), and dad just got home so I gotta stop watching half-way through the movie. Gonna study now, and by study I mean listening to the music and lurking on twitter with a book open.

22:10 / 10:10 pm. Just finished "studying". I'm gonna crash my bed cuz tired, even though I didn't do anything tiring the whole day lol. But before I go to bed, I want to pour everything in my head here.

There's nothing special here today, actually. But I'm just gonna say anything that comes into my mind, an activity I never did (and probably will never do) in public, cuz when I do, people will hate me.

My eyes hurt. I've been staring at a screen, any kind of screen, for too long. I've been watching the TV when playing PS2, watching YT vids on my laptop, lurking on twitter and writing this on my phone. A little too much electronic devices can go a long way.

Oh, I got it. I wanna talk about my bro. Long ago, me and my bro were the best of buddies. He never used terms like "big brother" or anything like that and I never called him "little brother" despite our age (he's 2 years younger), were just us. We're friends. All we had was just our old phones (no internet), our psp for online battles, and a computer. We used to play together with our psp. Playing co-op games and fighting games competitively. We also used to play the computer together. In an FPS game like CounterStrike, he plays and I keep an eye on the radar, pointing out where our allies are and possible enemy locations if an ally disappear from the radar. Now, we don't talk much. It pains me to write that last sentence, I wish its not true. We still talk, yeah, but all this electronic devices are tearing us apart. Maybe its just me being lonely, maybe he doesn't care as long as he gets to play my dad's phone. I don't know, I just don't.

Sometimes I put my phone down and talk about a random subject hoping he would listen and we might talk. His response are usually:
•just "what?" cuz he's focused on his phone.
•a plain "hm hm" which from the tone and how he said it I know he doesn't care and by saying "hm" he hopes I would just stop speaking.
•a rare "yeah, maybe, I don't know" response. This PISSES me beyond logical reasons. As if he's mocking me.

But yeah, I don't fuckin' know. Maybe its just me. But I don't care, at least, not anymore.

Bro, if you're reading this. Wake the fuck up from your ignorance and stop being such a fuckin' dick. At least that's what I feel about you. Wanna fight? Just say so.

Bam. That's it I guess.

-Aex

OD 1: Its a Start.

Sunday, December. 01/12/2013. 23:00 / 11:00 pm.

I'll be calling this entries "OD" which stands for Online Diary.

The reason I started writing again is to channel these emotions and stuff in my head.

I've been madly in love (I think) with this girl "Audrey". She's my younger brother's (his twitter: @Bayuaria33. Mine is @Aexeonn if you're interested.) classmate. We met around (if I remember correctly) a year ago. I don't know, man/woman, I'm just confused as fuck right now and I want someone, anyone, to listen. Hence this entry.

Today, this evening, I was going to the mall with my family. On the way to the mall, I checked my twitter and tweeted "otw sumarecon" (the mall's name) and got into the car. After 5 minute on the road we got trapped in a traffic jam. Bored, I checked my twitter. I was mentioned by @Audrey_VLT (her twitter), she said "BRO" and I thought it was her friend Axel (@ChampionSinnoh if you're interested in hentai, tokusatsu, anime, and pokemon) and casually replied "apa", meaning "what" and then put on my earphones to ignore the traffic (my dad is driving so no problem).

Another good few minutes went by and we got into an intersection. I (once again) checked twitter and found her replying "dimana low" meaning "where u at" and then BAM!!! It hits me. I realized that it was Audrey and not Axel. Their profile picture looks similiar so I mistook her for him. My heart skipped a beat. I fuckin' panicked.

"What the fuck?" I thought. "Calm down, deep breaths."

I then proceed to casually reply "masih otw" meaning "on the way" and quickly came to a conclusion that she's there as well.

Fuck.

Silence. I can't hear shit but my own thoughts.

What if--
What if--
What if--

At this point, I closed twitter and procced to look out the window in complete silence and not saying a word (not really), with my earphones on, until we reached our destination.

In the mall, my group (me, my bro, dad, mom, grandma, and my "maid" to say it politely. I don't know how to put it in English.) splits into two groups. Me, my bro, and dad are gonna go up and get a running shoes for dad, and my grandma, the 'maid', and mom to... I forgot, lol, and we split up. I (my group) went to the upper floor, just below the food court, to get to the shoe place-thing(?). There, I wait in fear, despair, and anxiety. She just tweeted something (I forgot what it is) so I know she's somewhere near the food court where people can get a decent connection (at least, mine was shitty at the time lol). In the shoe place I wait with my bro for about an hour, listening to dubstep cuz I can't get a connection for shit. Suddenly, my bro said "ey, dia dah pulang" meaning "she just went home", he's holding his phone so I think he knew from twitter. Maybe she tweeted something, I don't know. I was extremely relieved and disappointed. At one side I'm afraid she saw me, at another side I wanted to see her. I can't get her out of my head.

And then this post happened. That recent incident (not really) has been in my head for several hours long and I decided to post it here so I can get it out of my head, AND, so I can read how stupid I was in the past if I read this post in the future.

Now, boys and girls, I'm really really tired. So, ciao.

Audrey, if you are reading until this point, I expect you to know my feelings for you by now. Think whatever you want to think. Either way, I'm not ready for any kind of relationship, with you or any female human being on Earth beside my mom.

-Aex

Re-Introduction

Sunday, December. 01/12/2013. 22:15 / 10:15 pm.

Hello, boys and girls.

I, Aexeonn, have returned. Although you can find my real name in the very first post of this blog, please address me as Aex.

Its been a while now since the last time I opened this blog. The reason I use this blog again is to vent things is my head, and my heart. Like happiness, sadness, anger, and all other things worth (or not worth) posting. It will be an online diary. I don't fucking care about what you think when you read my post. I post everything that comes into my mind. And I will continue this in my next entry.

Fighting Fate 9 (Lab Rat)

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*present time, sickbay tent.*

"Unngh..."

"Huh? Hey, you finally woke up." Devon said happily.
"..I was awake the whole time.. but i feel a bit paralyzed.." Marlene said with a small voice.
"Hmm.. you should rest. We'll take care of you until you heal."
"..We..? Where are we? I remember fainted inside the Fortress border, but then.."
"You're in the Fortress border. The sickbay to be exact."
"Ah.."
"Hm? What is it? You seem confused."
"..actually, i already woke up a few minutes ago. But i feel so weak, so i can't talk to you."
"What do you want to talk about?" Devon moves closer to Marlene.
"When i woke up, i saw you sleeping over there.. you seemed scared about something.
Did you have a nightmare? A deep trauma perhaps?" Marlene asked.
"Hmmm..." Devon closes his eyes.
"Its okay If you don't want to tel--"
"No, I'll tell you." Devon opens his eyes, then takes a deep breath.
"Okay." Marlene said.

"To tell you the truth, I'm bored, sick and tired of my life. So much death.
150 years ago, i was in the army, the president needs, no, wants, a new kind of weapon to help his country, or to him, win the war. Or so i was told."

"150 years ago? You mean around 186X?" She asked.

"...yes... impossible right? But its true. The scientist team came up with and idea to make a humanoid weapon. The project was called 'the Ancients' project."

"The "Ancients?" You don't mean-- (gasps)" Marlene was surprised upon hearing Devon mentioned the "Ancients" project.

"Yes, it. The "Ancients" legend, people with the ability to use telepathy or telekinesis.
Psychic, basically. The idea to transform and modify the human DNA to do telekinesis was proven to be far too difficult for the scientist to realize, but modifying it to do telepathy was possible.
I was among the first 10 subjects, the first and the last, to participate in the program."

"..What happened to you?"
"They put me inside a large tube, then injected me with a liquid. They said it was just "military grade protein," i knew they lied.
But i didn't realized it until they put me inside that tube. From what i know before they put ne inside, that liquid was blood. A sample of blood of the first subject, his DNA was successfully modified but his body can't support the modified DNA.
After his DNA was modified, his body starts to rot, his skin was melting. The scientist team the dubbed this phenomenon "Degradation." He knew he was going to die. The scientist thought, although his body failed to contain the DNA, but the DNA itself was a successful medical breakthrough.
He can read minds and move objects without touching. The scientist team felt that the DNA have to be kept for further analysis, so they sampled the blood and made several hundred copies of it. Knowing that the DNA will slowly Degrade the body, they also came up with an idea to modify the DNA to make an everlasting human body.
The second, third and fourth died from the experiment, the first died soon after they died."

"What happened to the rest of the subjects?"
"The remaining, including me, was running a series of extreme physical exercise to verify our endurance before given the sample.
However, the fifth subject was called earlier, he was used as a medium for the 2 DNAs to collide and make a perfect bond, Fusing the blood sample. It was a success, they made a new, stronger human DNA, But the subject died in the process.
All the remaining subject died, except for me and the 10th subject. I was the 9th. It was... a miracle. After they injected the perfect blood sample to me and him, i felt extreme pain inside my whole body, i started screaming. I can't hear anything but my own voice. And then i fainted.
I don't remember all of it until a missile landed on top of the lab. I woke up, the glass tube was shattered so i came out. I looked around and realized, the lab was empty, it was abandoned, the 10th subject was never found, the upper levels of the underground lab turned into a factory and nobody ever came down.
Locals started to come as i emerged from the ruins. I was brought to a hospital, then they said that I'm fine. After regaining my memories, i realized i was asleep for more than 9 decades."

"You woke up in 194X?"

"Yes, everyone i knew is already dead. I started from zero and became a new man. Several years passed and i didn't grow old. The experiment i went through yields better results than what i expected. I spent 50 years traveling the globe and came across the desert. But then i ran out of supplies and went unconsciouss."

"I found you.."
"Yeah.." he said with a small voice.

"Can i ask another question?"
"Of course."
"Why did you save me? I was just a burden. I have no one left in my family.  Just me. M-my family.. they.." Marlene's eyes started to shed tears.

"Don't cry. Why i saved you.. I felt... responsible.. if you die, it will only burden me more. Seeing someone that saved your life, killed in front your eyes, that's just terrible. Y'know?"


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hey guys, this is it. the ninth chapter of the story. its the longest story so far i guess. the next chapter (10th, 11th and so on) are in progress but i have to tell you that its not going to be posted (its still in progress) because i had a writer's block. so i cant produce new work, or chapters in this case because i used all my ideas on this part of the story. so, maybe we'll meet again after a month or two. but i'll be back so don't worry.

please pardon my misspell.

Fighting Fate 8 (Invitation to Destruction)

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"...Devon..." Marlene whispered.

*Devon sits at Marlene's side*

"... The past, present and future will eventualy fade... but i won't forget you saving me." 
Then Devon sleeps in sitting position.

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*past event*
*the scene changed to a large barracks*

*Devon sits on a long bench*
"Private Devon?" Someone enters the door.

"Uh? I'm over here." 

"Ey man, good to see ya, you got a letter from the mailman, here, its for you." 
"-stares at the envelope- it says urgent here." Devon stares at the letter, confused.
"Yeah, anyway, i still got mails to give."
"You go on ahead, I'll be right here."
"Ok, I'll be going then."
"Yeah, sure. i'll be here if you need me." He opens the letter.

"Oh yeah, Happy birthday man." 

"... Thanks..."

Then Devon reads the letter.

URGENT, REPORT BACK TO HEADQUARTERS A.S.A.P.

"Hmm..."



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sorry its bit short guys (and gals) but the next part will be a lot longer than this one (the longest one i wrote so far i guess) and its almost done. so stay tuned for more.


and sorry for any misspelled words.

Fighting Fate 7 (Flashback)

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-in the Sickbay tent, bodybags everywhere-

"(The Rebels got heavy casualities.) Damn, what is that smell!?" Devon covers his mouth and nose.
A nurse passed by,
"Many men died today young man, honor the dead, for they have sacrificed their life protecting what matters most to them, Freedom."
She walks away.

"Freedom huh..."

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*past events*
*2 boys and a girl playing in a garden*

"Hahahahahah! I got you now! BANG!" A boy shouts.
"You missed ahahahaha!" It was Devon when he was still a boy.
"Watch me, i won't miss! BANG!" A girl pretended she was holding a gun.
"Ah nooo! Hahahaha!" Devon grabs his head.
"Yay! A Headshot!" Said the little girl.
"Playing war is so much fun! Ahahaha!" Said the other boy.

They all laughed happily.

*the scene changed to an urban battlefield*
*explosions everywhere*

"God damn it! They have started the Carpet Bombing! We gotta go now!" A soldier holding a radio shouted to his fellow soldier.
"Hit the dirt!" Another soldier shouted, Devon at 17 years old.

They jumped, a large explosion in background.

"Ugh!" Devon tried to stand, beside him is whats left if his friend's body.

"Jim! Lets get you out of here!"

"De-Dev, I-i can't stand... i can't feel my legs... my freaking legs..."
Devon looked down, Jim's lower torso is gone, waist, legs, burnt from the explosion.
"My legs! So much pain! -Screams in agony-"

"Oh God..."

"I can't take this! -screaming in pain- God damn it! Shoot me!"

"No! No man left behind! Remember!?" Devon kneels beside his friend.

"Cut this Heroic shit man! Shoot me! Don't let me suffer any longer!"

 .....

"-Devon pulls out his sidearm then Aims at his head- Forgive me Jim... -his arms started to shake-"

Devon pulled the trigger, the gunfire sound echoes through his ears.

*back to present time*
*Rebel Sickbay tent*

"Hey, snap out of it kid."

"Eh!?" Devon took a step back.
"Dont stand infront of the door kid, people needs medical attention."
"Oh.. eh, sorry."
"It seems you've been thinking. Go get your girl, there is time for thinking later."

Fighting Fate 6 (A gift)

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-after a short battle, the outnumbered Mercs retreated-

"Rebels! Regroup! Count the survivors and scavenge what you can find from the enemy." The commanding officer gave an order.

"Let's go boys!" Said an old man. 
"Oh yeah, those Mercs sure always got the good stuff." A young man replied, then they all started searching whatever they can find from the dead bodies. 

The sun sets down, night have come.

Devon, now exhausted, dismounted himself from the gun bunker. "Man, i hope they don't get back here."

An experienced looking man walked towards him. 
"Nice shooting kid, some sharp eyes you got there." 
"Uh, thanks?" Devon sits on the ground, trying to catch his breath.

"I guess you're gifted, or something, because sometimes, some people are more than meets the eye." 
"(Did he find out already!?) What are talking about? Maybe I'm just lucky." 

"If that's the case, then maaaybee i should stick with you, hoping your luck might rub off on me. Eh? Hehehe." 
"(Whew, guess not.) Yeah, i was lucky. Was. My name's Devon by the way." 

"Oh, so you're Devon eh? My name's Jackson, but you can call me Jack." 
"(Have i told you my name somewhere?) Nice meeting you Jack." 

"Nice to meet you too, anyway, i think you should go check the sickbay, that girlfriend of yours, she keep saying your name like it was some kind of prayer." 
"(Girlfriend? But we just met.) Oh, right. I'll be going then." 

"Ey wait, gimme back my handgun." 
"(Handgun? What handg--) Eh? Oh this? Yeah, here, i forgot i put that in my pocket. Hehehe." 

-Devon returned the old M1911- 

"You seem to like this gun," Jack walks to sickbay.
"Yeah, a little." Devon joins him.

"This is an antique kid, you use this to kill people, right? I say, you should sell this. BUT, in this kind of era, you gotta use what you can find." 
"Yeah, but bullets are hard to find this days right?" 

"You're catching up fast kid! Hehe. Yeah it sure is hard to find, that's why we, Rebels still use swords and bows as an alternative self defense tools." 
"I see..." 

"And, i saw you running to the gate, you were unarmed." 
"Yeah, i gotta save her. She saved my life too, once." 

"Heh, classic, somebody saved you and you vowed to save theirs. Loyalty." 
"(Classic?) Yeaaahh, sorta like that?" 

"In that case, here, keep it. Might help you in tight spots." 

-Jack gave Devon his old M1911 with 5 spare magazines, and a sheathed survival knife-

"Now, don't expect a dinner and a date. Hehehe." 
"For me? Uh, thanks but, Are you sure about the gun? It looks somehow special to you." 

"Naahh, i stole that gun from a Merc, my first kill. Hehehe." 

-they stopped near the sickbay tent- 

"Go and check that girlfriend of yours ok? Heheh, i still got some paperwork reports to send to HQ, see ya!" Then Jack runs to the Tower.