This Online Diary tells my daily days from the fourth week of August to the beginning of October. In this post-
*sigh...*
I might have to write less and less because of the time constraints college life has given me. I might not post this in a monthly basis anymore. And I might split this entry into parts.
I'm sorry, boys and girls. Also, I'm back to editing this via phone. I'll do it on my laptop eventually but I want to get as many things done in the shortest possible time.
Part 1, I wanted to turn to stone and crumble, I start to wake up before the sun shines and try not to cry about it, went through my orientation days in which people from the last generation might think "Kids nowadays are too soft." and started my college life, which I wrote about below very ambiguously because I can't collect my thoughts. Also, I found out how cute and different a bunch of girls can be in the right circumstances.
Monday, August. 24/08/2015 07:23
I'm at the campus. Its pretty intimidating. First thing I saw was a bunch of people grouped together. Makes me feel worried for not having any friends or something.
09:17
I'm in class. We're done with introductions, and now filling up a questionnaire. This is vastly different from my old school life, and that is being homeschooled. There are so many people here, seriously. At this time usually I just woke up or were awake but still lay around in bed. Being a lazy bum for 3 months isn't gonna help here. I figured because of how I am, I have to work harder than anyone in the room to get the average. But even after understanding that, it feels different when you are actually in that situation.
This is just the first day and I already feel tired and confused. Orientation, day 1 of 5. My parents woke me up at 4 or 5 in the morning, I don't know. I will be riding my parents' car to the campus for the first few days but after that, I don't know.
10:45
People started calling me "Pampam" because I tried to be funny.
Tuesday, August. 25/08/2015 06:26
Hello, boys and girls. I felt like shit after my first day, how am I gonna last 4 years? I don't know.
Anyway...
When I woke up this morning around 5, I felt a bit discouraged. The fact that I woke up this early just demoralized me. This is the real deal, my vacation ended and I can't play around anymore. I'm actually not allowed to bring my phone today and probably the next few days too, so I'll drop everything while I have the chance. I'll still be bringing my phone, but I'll leave it in my bag. Let's start by talking about yesterday.
After fighting through morning traffic, I arrived at my college UB. We were told to be there before 07:30 and I got there pretty close. I waited for quite some time doing nothing until all the students were told to group up and make rows based on their major. I was a bit lost, and followed my instinct to, you know, follow people. After a few minutes of shouting and indiscernible megaphone speech, we were brought in to our classes. My major has the most students compared to all the other majors. Mine have maybe around 150~200 students while others might not go past 100. There are no specific classes for the students for now. We just follow our senior to a class, fill it up and move to another class until all students are seated.
I don't know where to sit but I do know I want a real seat and table, not a chair with a small table strapped on it. I sat on the middle row on the rightmost position. I have an empty seat and a wall for a friend, until a couple of girls took the empty seats on my left. I looked at the table and when I placed my bag under it, hey! There's a couple of power outlets built in here! We were then told to introduce ourselves one by one. There were maybe around 40 students on my class. When it was my turn, I introduced myself and tried to be funny. Did I make a lasting first impression? I don't know, but they gave me a nickname that, despite how ridiculous it sounds, I like it. Kind of. Maybe? I dunno.
We were then given a questionnaire to fill. It was things like "where do you live," "what's your email address" or "how much do you use your phone in a day." Something like that. After that, nothing. There was nothing to do, so I stealthily played my PSP under the table. Quite a ballsy move. We did nothing for about an hour, and I didn't know why. I didn't realize we were waiting for our turn to take our photos or something. I knew because I asked this one cranky ass senior girl called Rindu (means "miss" as in "I miss you." in Indonesian). I don't think she likes me for asking too much question.
People on average asked 2 question, maybe I asked 10.
It was then our turn to take this "photo" thing. We were given our college coats to wear only for this shoot. It was rotated. You fill in a small paper, take a coat that fits, take your shot, return the coat, get out. And we're done, you're permitted to go home after. I was asked about my cloth size by some guy and I said "XL." He took off and brought me a coat, I wore it, and then it didn't fit. It was the largest one they have. They said they're going to make a larger one. I might be the only person to take the photo with my coat unbuttoned.
07:55
After another pointless formation making in the field, we were grouped into smaller teams. The coach or whatever he is, is now noticeably more harsh on his words. I don't think today's gonna be as easy as yesterday. God help me.
11:57
Recess, prayer and lunch.
Man, 4 hours of speech isn't fun. We sat on the floor for almost the whole duration and I'm tired. What's gotten my attention was, there was some familiar faces. Doppelgangers. My elementary school friend Bintang Adinugroho, my homeschooling friend Fadil, and my saviour Rizky. I strongly believe them to be not who I thought they were, but their faces were so familiar, I almost called them out.
So, after we walked for a minute from the field into some kind of meeting hall, all 700+ of us were told to sit on the floor and listen to a series of speech from various lecturers. My ass hurts, my feet feels numb and I was so sleepy but I have to keep going in that crowded and noisy room. Which I am still in.
22:35
I don't know if I'll even have time to write these anymore! Or anything, for that matter! No leisure time! Shit!
Wednesday, August. 26/08/2015 05:51
You boys and girls must have figured out by now that I'm writing these entries in my parents' car. I'm taking a huge risk here because I don't handle carsickness very well. I mustn't get used to this because next week I might have to manage going to campus by myself. God help us all.
I got home very late yesterday, around maybe 18:00 or later. I have been given 2 assignments and one is to draw something whatever the fuck, and the other is to memorize the campus's hymn. I spent 3 hours drawing until 22:30 and slept. I entered a group chat yesterday to help me get more info, you know.
I gotta say, people are not as helpful as they are funny. They're not very nice, or maybe I'm just too soft. I haven't socialized in 3 months so, yeah, it could be my fault.
Thursday, August. 27/08/2015 05:18
Orientation day 4 of 5, or college day -3.
I am so tired, I don't remember much of anything, really.
By the way, Dillon chatted me last night and we talked a little. He said I wasn't getting enough rest. I need to sleep for 8 hours minimum. I sleep for less than 6 hours since orientation. My god...
Friday, August. 28/08/2015 11:52
Hey, boys and girls. I got a few free hours to burn but not much battery left to run, so let's crash. My scepticism slapped me back in the face today. I'll explain later, for now I'll write about recent events.
Tuesday (24th),Wednesday (25th) and Thursday (26th) were pretty much the same. It was a lot of speech from important people. Their speech to inspire and inform us new students during orientation were amazing, but it scared me too. During their speech and presentation they showed slideshows of their exploits and achievements and it intimidated me, you could say. The theme of my writing for these 3 days would be "exhaustion beats euphoria." and the direction of the orientation was "fun orientation" with #NoBullying as a focus.
I already talked about Tuesday until midday, now I'll just continue the rest of the day. After recess, some seniors which was also our hosts performed some stand up comedy to cheer us up and it was pretty good, even though it didn't last very long. We got excited again, full of energy after having lunch and watched a comedy performance. Then more exposition comes in and I don't understand shit, and then some inspirational speeches from the seniors. At the end of the day, we were given 2 assignments: draw something, and memorize the campus' hymn. I slept kind of late after that.
Wednesday 26th.
As I have said before, its pretty much the same. Before recess was some very long speeches by different campus officials from yesterday and a motivational speech by someone from outside the campus. One of the speeches were done by a respectable, veteran dean of the universities. She had this... very pressing aura, her presence alone struck the fear of god into the core of my soul. Her speech was about etiquette and manners and it was delivered with light hearted comedy, but I didn't laugh at all. I stayed silent in a sea of laughter.
I don't know what happened to me, but I wanted to bite my tongue, turn to stone and crumble. After having her burning absolute horror into my mind and listening to a good motivational speech about the power of youth, I ate lunch. Recess time. During recess I ate lunch and talked to a bunch of people from my team. There was a lot of doppelgangers. People, mostly girls, started to affectionately calling me "Pampam" and I just realized that the nickname they gave me have now been widely known by people outside of my major, and by that I mean almost 700 people know me. Kind of. After recess was more comedic performances, but they gave less effect than yesterday.
In order to raise the new student's spirit and kill the remaining time before going home, they gave an assignment for all 21 teams to make a catchphrase and a theme song for us to perform when the team's name is mentioned. Needless to say, we didn't win but we weren't the worst either. Some teams got very good responses and were cheered very heavily, others got severely ridiculed to a point of being a meme. That day's assignment was to memorize the campus' march song, and make an instagram video about what I think a clever student should be. Basically, I made my first ever 10 second-ish vlog. Its in Indonesian. In order to end my suffering of not having enough rest, I promised myself to sleep before 9, but I didn't keep my own promise because of YouTube.
Thursday 27th.
This day was actually the final day of orientation instead of the Friday 28th (today) like what I initially expected. I don't remember much about the morning of it except getting inside a lift filled with girls. It wasn't fun, instead, I feel threatened by their strength in numbers. Before that, I can recall there was an assignment and some new students volunteered to be our representatives. In the usual meeting hall, we were given a very thorough and exhaustive exposition out of a 20 page guide.
12:41
Dad just emailed me an article about how people from certain majors connected to mine can get more than US$ 70.000/year. Yeah, money.
Anyway, the book wasn't very important, to me anyway, but I'll keep it, just cause. Its a guide to a website. Now, the website is the important shit here. Misuse the site, and you could throw your college scholarship away. I sat in the very middle and front-most position on the room so I can't do goofy shit, otherwise the host would spot me. Not that I want to do goofy shit anyway, but, you know.
After that very important message, there was a sponsored notice from a bank, and then a very long presentation from various extracurricular comity/faction to join their cause. Sort of like clubs. Many gave presentation, others just showed a video, and few did both. I heard it was mandatory to join a club, but I didn't join because it was unclear if it really was mandatory and I don't want to anyway. I'm sure they'll tell me something if I do have to join up.
Most of them put up a good show, especially the choir club and the basketball club, but others didn't do so well, like the traditional dance club or the journalist club. It was pretty clear the English Debate Society (EDS club) was very popular and have won many awards, but I was kind of disappointed in them because while they are the prestigious debate club and they can speak english quickly and with clear pronunciations, they're still horrible with their vocabularies. Say, "I'm speaking to you because..." became "I speaking because..." But what can I do about it, right? I'm just another face in the crowd, a nobody.
After all that's done, we were told the owner of the university along with other important official figures from the campus would be coming and gave a few words as they all welcome the new students. As I have said earlier, I sat in the very front row and middle column, so I couldn't do goofy shit, but now I can't even look like I'm about to do goofy shit. After they all came in, we were all told to stand up to sing the national anthem and the campus' hymn. You don't know how nervous I was when I have to stand up and cover for the students behind me. I was so beyond terrified, I crossed all my fingers behind my back. Everyone around me stood up, I just happened to be a very noticeably wide person standing in the front.
After that, a female director of some sort stepped up the stage and gave 2 welcome speeches. It was quite long, and after that, the volunteer representatives showed up to perform a series of performances (an act? Drama? Musical?) that ended with a public dance off. Yes, I danced a bit.
After all that chaos, the seniors started the closing ceremony for #UBsWeek2015. I, again in front, covered my mates when we were ordered to sing our marching song to end the event.
We ended the day by letting go the "Balloons of Hope." We were given post-it notes and we were supposed to fill it with our hopes and dreams. We were then taken to the field, stick said post-its on a balloon and let it go as a symbol of the start of our academic year. It was a beautiful moment. Sadly, I didn't capture any of it because I had my phone in my bag. You can search for documentations in instagram with the hashtag I wrote previously, if you want to.
Now, what I didn't know was, today is supposed to be a day off but I came anyway. Well, I didn't "didn't know," I heard about it but I was skeptical because the info was unclear. Could be a prank, right? What happened was I came so early that no other person was there except for security and the cleaning service guys. Then I decided to walk around and get the feel of the place a bit more while searching for new intel posted on multiple bulletin boards scattered around the campus, than to just sit around for 6 hours. I told my fellow students to tell me if they have anything to ask so I can ask around for them and because of that, I spent most of my time walking back and forth between a bulletin board and the administration room in which I am sitting now, waiting to be picked up in the incoming hour and chatting away the answer to their questions. Look at the positive side, though. I got tons of useful important intel.
Saturday, August. 29/08/2015 07:07
I want to cry my eyes out, but I can't.
07:22
Hey, boys and girls. I'm at a McDonald's, having breakfast with mom.
I can't believe my Saturday has been stolen from me.
08:43
I'm in this hospital that looks like it came from the '60s holy shit.
10:14
I'm at the campus. Very crowded, standing room only.
14:13
I'm at a mall, lifting and carting around things mom bought.
Monday, August. 31/08/2015 08:57
What's up, boys and girls? I'm at the campus and I'm tired as fuck. Beautiful day, eh?
I received my college schedule and I mostly have morning classes except for Monday, today. Class starts at around 11 and that means I have plenty of time to... be confused and do nothing? Yeah, pretty much. Other days I must come at 7. Bummer, right? Yesterday was pretty relaxing because I get to have some rest, but I couldn't fully "relax" because of a constant reminder that "Tomorrow is fuckin Monday." Now I get why people don't like Mondays that much. Ah, mom's sister came and they had a "sister's day out" together with my uncle, because he drives. Before I talk about what happened on Saturday, I'd like to talk about more recent events- more specifically, a few minutes ago. I have a habit to check my social medias after I woke up and before I go to sleep, spending around 30 minutes each time I did that. If I can't, I do it whenever I think I have time and I do it bit by bit. I checked instagram just a few minutes ago and found a series of posts by Audrey on her private-ish account. I don't know if it really is private because I forgot I followed her and I saw her posts. The first post- well, actually all of them was just a plain black pic. The caption below was the difference. The first caption was lyrics, I can relate to it but I can't say for sure what she meant when she posted it.
The second and third caption was filled with vent. About how she can't take it anymore and about attention seeking. I don't know if she visited my last post OD34 and read the depressed part, but I'm gonna think as if she did. I also don't know to whom the post was directed, but she was disgusted to be someone's friend, and why did she even want to be friends with them in the first place. She talked about them talking behind her back. The other one was her saying that she can't forever take insults and stay quiet. Emphasize on insult and attention seeking.
I think she misunderstood me and thought I lumped her together with the "depressed" attention seeker and might mistook my last sentence as an insult for her to, like, "pull it together, crybaby." while in reality, I didn't aim those sentences at anyone. I don't even know if she reads my blog anymore.
But if you still do, Audrey, I'm sorry.
If reading pieces of my mind hurts you then, please, don't continue. If you think I insulted you because you were feeling down, then I'm sorry, but I didn't mean to. If you think I am an insensitive prick for not picking my words more carefully, that's okay and I'm sorry. I didn't mean to attack anyone, I was just saying there are two kinds of people. I'm not telling you to not get angry, if you are, that's okay.
If anything about me hurts you then, please, stop looking for me. I'm not trying to push you away, its just... Don't hurt yourself. But if you really want to contact me, please do. You know how to find me.
...Please, if you need someone to talk to, I can listen. I might not always have time, but I'll try. Leave a message, call me, do anything.
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Saturday 30th.
I'm supposed to go to campus at a certain time to come and fill up some kind of schedule, and it was very important. The problem was, mom and I got there way too early because she misread the schedule. We spent the morning walking to the hospital just next to my campus complex to make a document file about my health. It was required by the campus administrative, until now my documents are still not complete. When we got there, they say the doctor isn't here yet, so we decided to walk around town. I visited dad's office- oh, by the way, dad is on a 3-day trip starting today. I visited his office, tried public transportation, and had breakfast with mom.
After we had our meal, we came back to the doctor's office and waited for about an hour. When the guy did came and I finally had my health examination, it was just maybe 5 minutes of check up. Not worth the wait, but I still need the document. I then went back to the campus and walked around almost nonstop to check for new information.
When the time to finally check and make our own college schedule, everyone came out of their hiding place. It was truly, a standing room only. I didn't know how long I stood up before finally getting into the room, maybe 3 hours? I don't know. After that's done, I met up with my mom and had a small lunch. Instead of going straight home, mom needed to buy groceries and I lift stuff up for her.
Wednesday, August. 02/09/2015 12:37
Hey. Umm...
I'm feeling a bit down right now.
So, one of my classes was about manners, etiquette and personality development. The teacher was satan incarnate. She is a well known international icon.
My god. Umm...
Long story short: I'm scared as shit. I fear for my life.
Thursday, August. 03/09/2015 07:08
What's up, boys and girls? I'm in class right now and I still have a few minutes before the lecturer comes in.
I've learned a few new things in life, such as how good it feels when you get enough sleep and waking up whenever you want. I used to take this for granted during my vacation and now I have to manage my life better. I can only sleep however I want on the weekends, and I must catch up on sleeping whenever I can. It feels so good to be able to sleep in dad's car, really. Aside from all that, I have a fuck ton of assignments to finish.
You'll sometimes notice my writings get a bit cut off, incomplete or disconnected here and there, and its because I cannot complete my thoughts in my limited time. Sorry about that.
Sunday, September. 06/09/2015 22:27
Hey. Hi. Hello. :)
I should be sleeping right now because I have class tomorrow, but fuck it. I want to talk to you boys and girls for a bit. Catching up on lost opportunities and free times to talk to all of you wonderful, wonderful people.
Hey, you. Yeah, you. I missed you. I miss you, and I will miss you again.
I felt so lonely and tired from all my recent activities. I'm starting to know and remember some people, but regardless I know them or not, social interactions would only tire me. They sucked out my energy with every message, every laugh, every word. I don't like this feeling. Its so quiet, even in the middle of those crowds.
Look at you, reading these texts on a screen, with those perfect eyes of yours.
After rereading my writing thus far, I wanted to end it here because its been long enough, and because of other reasons. Its been way past the end of August, I wrote my orientation days, I also wrote my first week of college. Well, partially.
Don't stop smiling.
I want to end this. With farewell and all, like, see you later.
-Aex
Or something like that. But I need to edit this on my laptop and I just don't have the free time and the drive. I have time, but its not free, and I don't feel like editing this because I used my energy to cope with the crowd. Oh, you. Thanks.
Stay safe, I love you.
Look at the time, I must sleep. See ya.
Friday, September. 11/09/2015 11:55
Never forget 9/11. Mourn the deaths of random innocent people.
Friday prayer, everyone.
Finally a little bit of "me time" while I wait for call to pray (adzan).
So, uhh... hey. Man, it feels awkward talking to you boys and girls after such a long time. Okay, not really. I wanted to talk about so many things but (college) life just keep pulling me back. Dang it, life.
Dang it.
Anyway, its good to have you back. There aren't too many things to talk about if were gonna talk about college itself, unless I decided to post all my paperwork here. I don't know where to start, really. There's just so much to take in and process, and I might have forgotten some things because of, you know, assignments. Let's start from what usually happens everyday.
Every work day, my parents woke me up at around 5 in the morning and then I immediately take a bath and prepare my stuff, if I haven't prepared it the night before. Although being up that early hurts me emotionally because I love my bed, it doesn't take half an hour from me struggling to get out of it into finally getting into the car and departing. This is how my parents work everyday, and I've become a part of it. I can spend up to two hours on the road everyday depending on the traffic jam, and only 45 minutes on weekends with zero traffic.
15:56
Zinogre is such a fun monster to fight. Partially because I'm a noob who abuses the Gunlance's superior guarding ability, but I somehow still have Jinouga hitting me despite the fact that he telegraphs all of his attacks.
I just finished a hunt on Monster Hunter. I realized it might have been weeks since I last played my PSP and when I booted it up, I found my character in the middle of a hunt. I thought to myself, "alright, let's finish the hunt, get things sorted out nicely, save the game, take out the battery and put the PSP back into its box." because I don't know how often I would be able to enjoy this luxury. I dunno, though, maybe I'll just put my PSP away like I used to, in case I have some time to kill monsters. Okay, back into telling you what I usually do everyday, at least, for the last couple of weeks.
On Mondays my class starts at 11, but I came to campus at around 6:30 everyday regardless, because college starts at 7 every other day of the week. Before continuing, I would like to tell you about SKS, a system used by the campus or something. Every subject has a certain number of SKS, usually 2 or 3, and 1 SKS is about 40~50 minutes of class. Got that? Okay. Scientific Writing and Presentation Skills class on Mondays (2 sks). English class on Tuesdays (3 sks). Sociology class (3 sks) and Etiquette class (3 sks) on Wednesdays. Indonesian class (2 sks) and Citizenship class (2 sks) on Thursdays. Religion class (2 sks) and Communications Science class (3 sks) on Friday.
My days usually finish at 1 o'clock but I still arrive at home around 3 ~ 4 in the evening because I have to wait for almost an hour for dad to pick me up and we might make some stops along the way, depending on what dad has in mind.
Sunday, September. 13/09/2015 20:51
Have you figured out that I've been telling myself to go sleep as soon as the clock hits 21:00? It doesn't work the way I thought it would be. Anyway, back on track.
As I've said earlier, the time I arrive at home varies from day to day, but I kept my schedule similar. Or at least, I try to. Everyday, I arrive at the campus at around 6:30 and finish usually at 13:00. On Mondays class starts at 11 though, so its a lot of time wasted on waiting for the class itself to start or end, and waiting to be picked up.
Okay, its 21:00 and I must go to sleep.
I'm sorry for this very messy post, boys and girls, I really am sorry for this. Reading it myself makes me think "what the hell is this guy is trying to say? Its like his thoughts are scattered." And its true, my thoughts are scattered.
Good night, boys and girls.
Tuesday, September. 15/09/2015 20:46
Would you believe me if I said I went out for more that 12 hours? So, this Sunday, there's gonna be an event and I bet its gonna be much longer than today. I was tired, I'm tired now, I'm gonna be tired tomorrow, I'm locked on this tired state indefinitely.
Anyway, I need to see cute girls doing cute things, and I happened to saw a bunch of them and I even knew them. But that was then, this is now. I will still want to see cute girls doing cute things after writing this. Earlier today after English class, I was told to come to an unofficial event briefing later at 1 o'clock. Because I have nothing to do, I decided to attend it even though I could've also easily chose to come home earlier. After realizing that fact, I wanted to go home so badly and went out on a walk inside the campus. A slow walk, meant to observe as much event as I could rather than to reach a destination.
When I was walking along the hall near the library of my campus, I saw a girl, let's call her Kai and she was with some other girls. She somehow made a fuss in the Communications Science major chat group last night and also a few nights ago, and she didn't even know why. It was her 15 minutes of internet fame, and she was completely oblivious about it. By the way, its the college major I took. I took an interest in her because she called herself "blue snow cloud" or "blue sky snow" in Japanese (Aono Sorayuki someethingsomething), in the group chat.
I saw down next to her after she called me. Yes, most people knew me even thought I don't know them because I'm that special snowflake. "He's homeschooled." The Legend of PamPam has already been heard by probably all the new students now, and I hate that fact.
Anyway, I sat down next to her. To not make things feel awkward, I took the initiative to talk and used her looseleaf notebook as a topic. It was a bit covered with anime stickers and it had a few laminated anime cards along with some anime themed keychains tied to it. Yes, I know you know where this is going.
Wha- N-not hentai! Ba-baka...
We had almost an hour of laugh-filled chat about anime, even though there were some interruptions by other people, such as this one girl who borrowed my USB cable to charge her phone, or me being asked to bring a certain book by the English class rep for her to copy because she didn't have it yet. By the way, the English class rep is very smart and beautiful and she speaks English very confidently, she even speak it with British accent, but she's just not my type. I dunno, maybe if I spend more time with her...
Suddenly, one of Kai's friends wanted to do their group project and she asked me to go along with her, to make it merrier, she said. We took off from the campus' library out into the second floor, which is a mall. Yes, its combined with a shopping district. After a short walk, we arrived at A&W and met with a bunch of girls, looking tired and depressed over an assignment. Seat arrangement:
eeggK
+++++A
egggg
E means an empty seat, G means a girl, + is for the tables, K is for Kai, and A for me, Aex.
For about half an hour they worked on an Indonesian assignment and I helped them a bit even though I don't actually know what I was doing. I used logic here and there, you know. I stopped helping them to buy a vanilla ice cream sundae and when I got back to my seat, I remember lending my USB cable and forgot to pick it up. After that's done, most of the girls went off doing something I can't recall and left me alone with Kai. We talked again for about half an hour before departing to the unofficial briefing. It was a bit more personal. We talked about our families and school, although she did most of the talking about the latter subject because I don't have too much to contribute.
The rendezvous point was a back alley to a football (or soccer, for you Americans) field called "Taman Firdaus" which can be translated to "Garden of Eden" if we're using the same context, or just plain "Firdaus' Park" if translated in a literal way. The plan was to gather all 225 new students into the park and meet up with the older generations of students. While we were waiting, Kai and I started to talk about ourselves. She told me about her fascination with the choir club and about a disease she had. I couldn't remember what it was but its pretty bad, she needs to use a medicine for 15~25 years or so because her heart doesn't have valves like normal people do. It also explains why she's so small, almost a frail little girl.
The briefing was on, and we were told to count. There was only half of the new 2015 students present, 130-ish people, and we still beat the number of our seniors from 2011, 2012, 2013 and 2014 combined, by a large margin. We were given a briefing and a task, and that is to have a group pic sent before Saturday. Before closing the briefing we were given another small task and that is to stand up one by one, mention your name and one thing about yourself, like your hobby, your skill or your personality. While I was anxiously waiting for my turn, I felt someone poke my back and it was the girl who borrowed my USB cable. Thank god she remembered to return it when I already forgot I lent it to her. I forgot about it twice, for fuck's sake.
I went up near the end and said I like videogames, then Kai went up and said she likes drawing. Just as the task was ending, it was Nana's turn to introduce herself as she was the last person to stand. She was full of confidence and said a lot of things about herself in a 10 second window of opportunity. Reading books, listening to music and watching anime. Kai and I felt like we've found another one of us who likes anime. What Kai didn't know was I already knew Nana. She went to the same junior high school as me. Yes, she knew me as well, in fact, she called me out on the second day of college. Strangely though, she didn't know what I did that made me drop out. She was there, not as a direct witness but she was around, maybe we were in different classes.
The event ended and everyone slowly scattered to the wind. I met up with Kai again while I was calling dad to pick me up, and also met up with Nana and Zii. I met Zii on my first day and she's probably the only girl who knows my other side, because I added her of Facebook just this morning after our conversation about drawing. All four of us walked together from that park to the front of the campus while talking about anime, although I felt left out because they're all girls and they obviously talk about shōjo anime with their ikemen and the likes.
Is it time to finally stop reopening old wounds? I'm such a masochist. Okay, that was a lie. Zii-chan, Kai-chan and Nana-chan. I think she prefers Nana-san, and I do think she would be the hardest route on a galge because she would start with minus affection points instead of a neutral zero. With those words in a certain context, you do know what I'm trying to say here, right? Yes, it might be flagged as harem, or worse, netorare. But the point is, I might have to truly move on from Audrey. She won't be forgotten, but my mind won't be around her all the time, right? I just hope the English class rep is actually a pretty nice girl under her class rep façade.
Part 1 end.
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